Blackbird Diaries

  Some days the anxiety wins. It took me more than fifty years to understand the grip it has on me. Not “had”. The bastard doesn’t give up easily and at times it is so impossible to tell the lies it tells from actual red flags. That’s how it wins. And God help anyone who loves a person with crippling anxiety. We can trust you 100%, but we are convinced that something better than us will come along and will convince ourselves that you deserve that better thing, just waiting for the news that you’ve moved on. If there isn’t a better option, the next lie is that we are too much work, and we wouldn’t blame anyone for getting tired of the constant need for reassurance. Especially when we do know better because we shouldn’t need it. Yet we do. Our practical, analytical minds know every reason and recall every act that disproves the lies, yet the bastard can use those same facts to drive anxiety higher. There are good days, we are confident in our situation yet one small thing triggers a

  What the Hell is this blog about?  Where to begin? I created this blog to accompany a podcast I am in the process of launching. The Blackbird Diaries are to be a collection of discussions around Spirituality's not-so-common common sense side, self-accountability and how our spiritual lives are not separate from the rest of our day to day lives.  The topics I'll cover may range from practices such as Mediumship, to Shadow Work (REAL Shadow Work), the importance of duality, and the need to celebrate being Human, as most spiritual teachings these days seem bent on convincing consumers that they have to "rise above" being Human instead of understanding and honoring the brilliant opportunities that come with that experience.  At times I may share some of my own experiences to illustrate the points I attempt to make. I am no guru, no scholar and by no means would be mistaken for a saint. I like my flaws, embrace my demons and use those to help me learn about others and at